damn confused. God please show me a sign?

very tired. can't wait for the 7th of july.

ramblings of an adult (I'm adult?! :( ) drama queen

Love my new blog template- the whole stained paint, batik dyed effect thing is cool. :) So how have things been?

I'm currently back at McK for a month or so, to earn extra moolah for my trip to Australia. OK la, good to be earning and its AWESOME too that they actually cover lunch, tea time and all. =) I should really save up as much as I can and then splurgeeee n enjoy when I'm in AUstralia. I love working at the Centennial building, its really convenient! Buses 133 and 857 take about 20 mins to reach there. And best part is the variety of food available, the amazing shops (think SUNTEC CITY, 'nuff said) and yeah lotsaaaa cool stuff! If I ever get to choose an ideal office area, it'd be Suntec City. I think Raffles Place is way too crowded and everything's somehow strangely far apart and it's severely lacking in (halal) food variety.

Anyway right now, I'm feeling really down. Made a decision and then had to retract it, I hate it when that happens. I can be so ultra-fickle sometimes and it sucks. I think I gotta learn how to stick to decisions. But on hindsight I think its good that I don't mind admitting to my mistakes and I do realise that its good to take time to think through things. I had to make a decision about smtg major earlier. (Pretty pissed with someone, whose name I shall not name), but this one mistake is really bad, can tarnish the reputation of this organization (not McK la of cos). Some other organization. Which is why I shall remain mum. And I gotta have a talk to her about it. How she should be more careful next time. Well, whats done is done. Think future, think better happier thoughts, think change.

Right now, I think for starters, gotta settle this issue I'm talking about (I know this vague-ness must be getting to you by now). Resolve the issue and move on. Check on everything else, make decisions move on to bigger things. I can do this.

Note to self: When you read this in the future, remember, that this wasn't a good moment but more importantly, remember that this moment was one of those development moments. (its amazing if you think about it, all these LITTLE episodes are doing SO MUCH for character-building.

So, today's the 16th. Gotta settle a bunch of things so as usual let me list them down:
1) Reply to DC's mentorship thoughts
2) ywlc agenda items for meeting tmr & what needs to be achieved in tmr's meeting
3) Application for jobs
4) Find a replacement to fill in for my tuition lessons (when I'm in Australia) - any takers??

ok thats all! (I feel like getting bronzey eye shadow). byeeee.

Malay is the national language of Singapore. Did you know that? Its kinda easy to forget huh?

May Allah bless all of us with the wisdom to discern good from wrong, the patience to withstand His challenges, trials and tribulations, the compassion to love and forgive one another despite our flaws and shortcomings and for the heart to keep heading in His blessed way of life. Be with me Ya Allah, please keep guiding me, Amin. Alhamdulillah.

Sweet things come in bite-sized portions

Woke up to PushSMS from NUS 2 days ago, squeezing my 6 mods worth of grades in one tiny sms, (I swear such sms-es are lethal, every passing alphabet is accountable for the highly volatile fluctuations in my heartbeat.) But t'was all good news!! Praise be to God! =))

FLEAFLYFLO HUM Riyaz's car got fire?!

Hi, today I slept in till late and woke up only at about 1plus pm. Then, I showered and ate my grandma's wonderful suryanam curry and black pepper beef & potatoes. My aunt and I then headed to the Geylang East Clinic for my grandma's health checkup and to get her medication. Then we headed to Geylang Serai to eat at Hajjah Maimunah and buy groceries. Riyaz's car caught fire and is beyond repair. Poor guy is so sad, wish I could help him out in some way. He really worked very hard to buy that car. Well, hope he gets a new one soon cos he needs it for work. ok I'm rather incoherent right now, got a few things to settle. Like:
1) Who to ask to sell stuff at the fleaflyflo flea market this sat
2) send email out to mentors
3) type out mins of mtg for RC
4) buy air ticket for australia trip
5) plan australia trip
6) start applying for jobs
7) etc etc etc

I need to resume my yoga classes! I shall try to go for one tmr, Inshaallah! (Shall sleep by 130am, I SHALL!)
ok toodlesss!

Don't blame Saatchi & Saatchi for an inevitable outcome

I think its hilarious that ad agencies are blamed or praised for the outcome of political campaigns. In fact, imho, I think advertising plays only a small role in the success of many campaigns or sales even. Take the Birtish elections for instance, Saatchi & Saatchi has been blamed for Gordon Brown's loss in the elections. Ok seriously, did he think he'd win again? After all those scandals? I doubt it really. After 13 years of Labour rule, it clearly seemed that public sentiment was rooting for change. ("change' seems to be the magic word in world politics today huh). So yes, my point is, no even a brilliant ad/marketing campaign can save you when you can't deliver.

Tired, hyper, falling sick but happy

Hi there! Its 4:53am and yet I'm feeling a bit hyper. Its obvious my sleeping clock is screwed up. Think the 2 panadol-Extras I just took are already working. (feeling a flu coming my way, and gosh, I DON'T WANNA FALL SICK.)

Went to Auntie Maleha's newborn grandson's ceremony today. Then to Bubu's house and finally to Bakar Nana's house. Ate tons of oily food (nasi briyani, soft drinks, PANDAN O-TEA (pish, remember this? haha) curry puffs, sugee cake,murtabak and more. No wonder I'm falling sick.

Ok, got a busy day ahead tmr/later. Gotta post some letters, head for more action-packed classes at true Yoga (this is my ideal plan la but we'll see.) then meet Angela for site recce at Hyflux and finally go for MPS to catch up with my beloved mentor. You know, sometimes I wonder why I'm doing all these things at this young tender (23-tender or not?) age, and whether its all worth it and then I realise that hell yeah, I'd rather be busy and try to fully maximize every minute of my life doing smtg fulfilling than be a free slacker with too much time on her hands. Hmm. But yes la, trade offs will always exist, but still, on an overall, I'm happy where I'm at at this point in my life, so Alhamdulillah. Ok, I shall go try to salvage and 'repair' that screwed up sleeping clock right now.

PS: I have a Her world photoshoot on tuesday and its eggcitingg! :) more updates soon.

I'll fly you to the moon and back

I'm sticky wicky. I wanna bathe. I'm excited for the Aussie-NZ trip but at the same time a bit anxious. Hmm. I really wish I was much richer. Then I could easily afford a trip to Europe and the US too or smtg. Sigh, someday, Inshaallah. :)

Yes, such an incoherent post I know. But still. I'm uploading my bday pics on fb as we speak. You know sometimes I think, fb is sucha complete waste of time, especially when you devote time to checking for updates or constantly updating stuff there (posts, pics, comments,etc). Then again, it definitely is a way to exchange views and enhance one's knowledge about the world. Like last wk, I found out (through FB) that Botak Jones has a halal outlet at Simpang Bedok! See, these kinda things make FB a worthy investment of one's time. And yes, I would very much like to go to Simpang Bedok's Botak Jones soon! :) I WILL!

Anyway, just because my mind's in disarray (that rhymes babay! ok ok I shall stop): I wanna share a quote I came across sometime ago: "Intelligence is no guarantee of wisdom". And I agree.The wisest people may not necessarily be the smartest but they probably have a better world-sense and more experience that will aid in decision-making processes. Hmm, just food for thought.