As you age, you tend to whine more.

I swear I'm aging. Like really. The car's free for usage now and its a saturday night! And I'm licensed! What better reason to take the car out for a ride? And I've got ready company! My wonderful cousin sister, but I'm just somehow not up to it. I'm TIRED, to say the least. The kinda tired that keeps u at home and end up blogging about how really tired u are instead of riding around the city to ur heart's fancy in the comfort of a four-wheeled vehicle. One or two years ago, it would have been different. My body could withstand the lack of sleep, the stress, the long days at school and still be up to late night redezvous outings. Somehow I never quite ran out of excitement and energy. In fact I was often put off by my frens who decide to go home early everytime we go out. NOW, things are different. Now, I'm whining about how easily tired I get. Ah, but things must change at some point anyway.

Today, I had to tend to the Aerobics booth at the NUS Open house. Crowd was okay, but really I think the sports club booths are rather redundant, but yes, for formality's sake, of course the sports clubs have to have their booths during the NUS open house, so I shall not complain. Talked a bit with Kiran (who was also there, manning the health n fitness booth) and with whom I haven't caught up with for so long despite the fact that we are faculty mates! Blame it on all the different mix of modles we're doing this sem. And I think Kiran has changed quite a bit. She's no longer the vivacious, cheery gal I always talked to and gushed -over hot-guys with. She just seems a lot more troubled and its really sad to know that such a close fren of mine hasn't been having it easy lately. Sighh, so much can happen within such a short time. Anyway I was showing her the dance videos of my dance concert and yeah it got me thinking bout all that has happened from december(when we first started practicing) to february the 28th (the day of the concert), and so the rest of this entry will be a very belated description of all that has happened for 'Elysium 2008' dance concert.

3 words to describe the whole experience: highly-political & tiring. That's a rather pessimistic view of the whole experience I suppose, but these words are at the tip of my mind everytime I think about the whole experience. Mentally exhausting for me too, cos there was alot of pressure to perform and somehow it seemed as if I was one of the sloest dancers around. But I'm glad tings worked out well enough in the end. Atleast there were 12 of us who stuck through thick and thin, and that is by far the top reason why I'm so proud of myself. Cos even when things get bitchy, and tiring, I stayed on when many had no qualms leaving. Sometimes though I ask yself if being so self-sacrificing, compromising and patient is worth all that exhaustion and unhappiness. But well, let's leave it at that cos its over anyway. Like any other experience, pleasant or not, I take away with me precious lessons. 1) To trust yourself and have confidence in your abilities. 2) to respect even the "weaker" ones cos its usually the weaker ones who emerge strongest and who hold the unwavering faith in themselves . 3) I'm not that fantastic a dancer, atleast no way near the standards of professional dancers out there, though I'm inclined to think it could be because they train EVERYDAY and atleast 8 hours or so per day. All in all though, the concert allowed me to do something I love best, dancing and performing, and I guess that made it worth all that exhaustion and tension. :)

K here are some of the photos of the concert itself:

me n sul

me n vicky

Eka n I

rad, me n sul

me n vicky

me n amanda

ant, me n sul

Come reggae with me

Went shopping with hani yesterday. To pass her, her bday gift and to shop around for summore for all those ppl whom I owe gifts. This year will be the 21st bday of so many frens so the gifts all have to be somewhat special, no? That will really equate to a bigger hole in my pocket/purse. Hahah, but no of cos I'm not complaining! These darlings are worth it, anytime!

I've just finished my MA question for presentation, and I pray that there aren't any mistakes to that, hopefully! Okay I'm feeling damn blah. Losing that closest-to-toned-up body I ever had after all that crazy dance practices to Old Chang Kee and feel-happy food, that won't make me too happy after I'm done with them. Oh well, atleast I made an effort today! I went for half an hour of yogilatez and one hour of latinorobics and picked up this new latin dance called "Zumba". Haha, its cute and fun, as all latin dances are, but I still dig reggae the most. If I were to ever take up any dance classes, it'd be reggae for sure! Anyhow I'm considering on teaching anyone aerobics or latino (Rhumba/salsa) steps. Just an urge. Maybe I'll organise a class next sem with you you. Will see. Okay I need to peel the contact lenses off my dried out eyeballs now. BYeeeee!

We should get jerseys cos we make a good team. :)

You know what I feel like doing? I feel like singing on a stage, to a large excitable crowd who are immersed in nothing but my voice and waving their hands high up in the air, without a care for anything else. I wanna do something loud, different. Dance like crazy somewhere, or sing out loud. Haha, the weather's so clear and windy it makes me feel like running out, going somewhere to do some serious kite flying. But I can't remember when was the last time I did kite-flying and I don't know how to tie the string to the kite, heck I don't even know where to get or how to make one. :( My mid-terms just ended, maybe thats why I'm an unnatural high right now.

But NO, that can't be just it. I'm so happy for no real apparent reason, but for love,for life. :) I am so blessed lah in so many ways. Thinking about it all makes me gasp in awe sometimes at how great and magnanimous Allah is. Its wonderful. I miss my friends. I feel like hugging every single one of them. I feel like going out into the streets with the sign "FREE HUGS" around my neck. I need to get OUT. HAHAHAHA. Ok I sound crazy. Let me upload some nice happy photos. :)

Outing with my tk darlings. To celebrate the birthdays of the 3 feb/march babies; liza.dayah and ju. ONE of whom wasn't there!


They're two of my closest frens, EVER. :)


Dayah was so touched, she cried! Alalalaaa~ Okay, she's SO gonna kill me for putting this photo up.

K there, dayah's pretty k!


Turns out, the cake we got her, was the EXACT one she wanted for her birthday. Hahah, but pretty cake, isn't it?


Lulu and me. :)


Nadzi darling, me n lulu.

Dinner was at Eatz 19, its this chic looking restaurant in Bugis, that I highly recommend. Its quite a small place, but service was of top-notch standards and the food's not too bad too. But, best of all,was the amazing ambience, perfect for dates, REALLY. They had candles and they dimmed the lights when it got dark. :) Anyway after dinner, we decided we haven't had enough of each other, so we headed down to Clarke Quay in two cars, with kai tailing lulu's.






That's lulu's car.



Kai with her, "When are we leaving?" look.


A shot of the river at night.

All in all, it was a nice gathering to catch up and all. I'm glad I have these girls, though sometimes I feel there is so much more we can do together. But yeah, can't really be helped since we're all so busy. One thing I'm sure about though, is that these 7 other girls will be there for me when I need them. That assurance is enough for me. :)


Oh this is just a random shot from another cam-whoring session. HAHA. Don't mind me.

An attempt to look emo.


I HAD to put this up. Only because, I'm no longer just a POSER-driver. :P
Can you tell just how ecstatic and elated I am?

LICENSED!!!!!!!!!! ;)

OFFICIALLY. AND, ABOUT TIME TOO! I'm so happy lah. Looking forward to my first drive on the roads tomorrow, as a qualified driver with a PROPER LICENCE and not those flimsy green PDL things and without those trusty instructors or testy testers by my side. Thank you Allah! :)

In other news, today reminds us once again how very stressful the whole education system is for us Singaporean teens. The A level results. (Wow, sudden flashback. Imagine it was 2 YEARS ago when I got mine!) Anyway my cousin didn't do too well, which is a pity cos she's one brilliant girl. And everyone knows, when it concerns ur academic performance and results , its not okay if u fail,not matter what anyone says. But, it really isn't the end. Thats something we, Singaporean students all have to digest more easily.

why life is at times, unfathomable

Equilibrium C = a + bYd
= a + b(Y-TA-TR)
= a + b (C+ I+G+X-TA-TR)
= a + b ( a +bYd + c+ dR +G + e + fY +gR – TA –TR)
= a + b (a +bYd + c + d(h/h+ ß'i(α +MS/iP ) -MS/iP ) + G + e + f(1/(h/i +ß) [α’ + MS/iP] – TA – TR) +[g(h/(h+ßi)] (α + MS/iP)-MS/iP- TA- TR
= a(1+b) + b²Yd +bc +( bd +g(h/(h+ßi) (α + MS/iP)-MS/iP) + G +e + f{ [α’ +MS/iP ] -2TA-2TR

And to think I actually used to like Econs. Help.