my side of the story

As you age, you tend to whine more.

I swear I'm aging. Like really. The car's free for usage now and its a saturday night! And I'm licensed! What better reason to take the car out for a ride? And I've got ready company! My wonderful cousin sister, but I'm just somehow not up to it. I'm TIRED, to say the least. The kinda tired that keeps u at home and end up blogging about how really tired u are instead of riding around the city to ur heart's fancy in the comfort of a four-wheeled vehicle. One or two years ago, it would have been different. My body could withstand the lack of sleep, the stress, the long days at school and still be up to late night redezvous outings. Somehow I never quite ran out of excitement and energy. In fact I was often put off by my frens who decide to go home early everytime we go out. NOW, things are different. Now, I'm whining about how easily tired I get. Ah, but things must change at some point anyway.

Today, I had to tend to the Aerobics booth at the NUS Open house. Crowd was okay, but really I think the sports club booths are rather redundant, but yes, for formality's sake, of course the sports clubs have to have their booths during the NUS open house, so I shall not complain. Talked a bit with Kiran (who was also there, manning the health n fitness booth) and with whom I haven't caught up with for so long despite the fact that we are faculty mates! Blame it on all the different mix of modles we're doing this sem. And I think Kiran has changed quite a bit. She's no longer the vivacious, cheery gal I always talked to and gushed -over hot-guys with. She just seems a lot more troubled and its really sad to know that such a close fren of mine hasn't been having it easy lately. Sighh, so much can happen within such a short time. Anyway I was showing her the dance videos of my dance concert and yeah it got me thinking bout all that has happened from december(when we first started practicing) to february the 28th (the day of the concert), and so the rest of this entry will be a very belated description of all that has happened for 'Elysium 2008' dance concert.

3 words to describe the whole experience: highly-political & tiring. That's a rather pessimistic view of the whole experience I suppose, but these words are at the tip of my mind everytime I think about the whole experience. Mentally exhausting for me too, cos there was alot of pressure to perform and somehow it seemed as if I was one of the sloest dancers around. But I'm glad tings worked out well enough in the end. Atleast there were 12 of us who stuck through thick and thin, and that is by far the top reason why I'm so proud of myself. Cos even when things get bitchy, and tiring, I stayed on when many had no qualms leaving. Sometimes though I ask yself if being so self-sacrificing, compromising and patient is worth all that exhaustion and unhappiness. But well, let's leave it at that cos its over anyway. Like any other experience, pleasant or not, I take away with me precious lessons. 1) To trust yourself and have confidence in your abilities. 2) to respect even the "weaker" ones cos its usually the weaker ones who emerge strongest and who hold the unwavering faith in themselves . 3) I'm not that fantastic a dancer, atleast no way near the standards of professional dancers out there, though I'm inclined to think it could be because they train EVERYDAY and atleast 8 hours or so per day. All in all though, the concert allowed me to do something I love best, dancing and performing, and I guess that made it worth all that exhaustion and tension. :)

K here are some of the photos of the concert itself: